Wednesday, August 25, 2010

10 years...



No one told me that after 10 years of marriage I would love you even more.

I didn't know I would still find myself breathless when you kiss me and weak when you touch me.

I didn't know that the tears we cried together would only make us closer.

I never knew that having a child would strengthen us as a team.

I didn't expect for you to make me feel so beautiful when my baby belly meant I couldn't see my feet.

I had not heard that marriage would bring so much laughter into my life.

I didn't know that you would be the one to show me what faithful meant.

You have surprised me with how much you have given to our marriage - how hard you have worked to be a husband and father.

I haven't forgotten the excitement I felt ten years ago as I became your wife. I haven't forgotten because I feel that same joy when we part in the mornings and when you come home in the evenings.

You truly are my best friend. My handsome lover. My safe place.

I love you more than I ever thought I was capable of loving and feel more loved by you than I thought was humanly possible.

Thank you Norse for making me your wife. I can't wait to see what the next decade brings as we walk this path together.

I love you.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Cherry Face

Eat, Pray, Love...

So, I have never read the book or seen the movie, but I adored what Emerging Mummy had to say about it. It makes me happy to eat, pray and love in the mundane life I live. :)

Have you read the book or seen the movie? What do you think? 

Monday, August 16, 2010

Summer = too busy with other people to spend time with my man...

Perhaps it is the mark that I have officially become a responsible adult. If so, I would like to return to the flighty, selfish person who doesn't accommodate others. This summer has been a constant barrage of family, friends, outings and obligations. Okay, okay - you have heard me complain that I get lonely, but I will tell you right now, loneliness can still happen when your life is inundated with people. I am trying to remain thankful that we have people in our life that want to spend time with us (even though sometimes it seems like we are just a conveniently free place to spend the night.) I really am grateful for the fun we have had with family and friends, but there is something that has suffered because of it - that thing is my marriage.

Don't read too much into this, my husband and I are still very much in love, very much committed to one another, and very happy to spend the little time we have had, with one another. It just seems that somehow we have been too busy to really connect. The last couple of weeks we have tried to make the effort to actually talk to one another about what is really going on with "us". We have had to deliberately take the time to really be with one another and I am afraid we may have offended some people in the process. However, I make no apologies - my marriage is more important than someone else's weekend getaway. It just is.

In my own heart I have been convicted that I have been secretly building up walls to keep Norse out. Instead of making the effort I have simply just let things happen and instead of growing in my desire to be hospitable I have become bitter against those who keep interrupting our summer. I have let small offenses take root and left them go unchecked, until now. And now, we have had tears, difficult discussions, and inflicted small wounds upon one another that will take time to heal. No it is not easy to work through some of my junk, but it is worth it, because my marriage is my most important relationship (other than the one with Jesus - I know).

I know that I am partly reacting to the thought of having a newborn again and all that it brings and ultimately takes away (i.e. freedom). I just don't want to waste another moment before we are once again called to deny ourselves for another season of breastfeeding, little sleep, and dirty diapers. In the long run there is no greater blessing than my amazing husband and children, but be honest - the first couple of years with kids is equally as demanding as it is joyous.

So, tell me- oh, wise reader - how do you balance it all?  Do you struggle with being hospitable? How do you set boundaries with family and friends to make sure you have time to work on your marriage and create special memories with just your children? Am I being selfish? 


P.S. - I found these two quick reads about marriage and date night helpful as I try to get my marital compass pointing in the right direction.

P.S.S. - I know, Norse, that you don't usually go to the links I post (and that I am not your Holy Spirit), but you should check them out for some insight, too. :) I love you!

Friday, August 13, 2010

Friends...

I would love it if you would hop on over to my sweet friend Erika's blog and read her recent entry about their sweet little Hannah. She is due to make her appearance soon!

Erika is a real life friend who I have been able to get to know even better through blogging (since we live a bazillion states away from each other.) Please join me in praying that God's grace be sufficient in whatever His will be, in this situation. I am praying for a miracle for sweet Hannah and hope you will, too! She truly is WONDERFULLY MADE!

Monday, August 02, 2010

I am a C-H ......

Yes, we all have issues with what people do in the name of "Christianity"...

I thought the response to Anne Rice's recent departure from Christendom found here at Mama:Monk was spot on and I agree wholeheartedly.

Take the time to read it.