Friday, April 02, 2010

Getting past the complacency...

Easter should be a very important day for the believer, but for me, this year, it seems kind of lame. Before you shout blasphemy, I in no way think my "feelings" minimize the amazing sacrifice that Christ gave or negate that he DID indeed rise from the dead, to life, and is ALIVE today. My belief remains, but my passion has waned. I am complacent.

I am hungry, but not fed. The bread of life has become no longer a necessity, but a chore. I am lukewarm. I am not sinning in the sense that my outward actions show that my heart is far from the lord. In fact, I honestly don't think I am far from Him. I just think that I have a hard time knowing if I am living in Him, or just going through the motions.

We try to make Him a priority every day. I try to teach my son about the Creator. We pray together as a family, we pray together as a couple, I pray. Perhaps, the reason that everyone else is making a big deal about Jesus this week/weekend makes me want to do it less, because I want to worship Him daily and not just be an Easter and Christmas kind of Christian. I don't know. What is my deal?

Have you struggled with this? I want to be passionate for my Lord again, but I don't want it to hurt (very much). How have you gotten past a season of complacency with your God? How do you keep Christ central not just at Easter (but some help there would be nice), but everyday?

What are you doing this weekend to remember what He gave for you, instead of getting used to hearing the story and losing your passion?

For now I will rejoice in the little things; the laughter with family, the joy of spring, and hope that God will open my eyes to the beautiful sacrifice He made for me.

For now I will meditate on my favorite hymn:

3 comments:

  1. God used my illness and liver transplant to get me past my complacency. That's a bit extreme though...But it did change my life, and my perspective on life. God is good though... It was a huge trial, but He has brought so much joy to my life because of it!

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  2. I'm trying to get caught up on reading now that Easter is over...and I have to say I am probably in a similar place. Lack of a plan is usually the culprit for me. I need something to get excited about and look forward to. Getting involved in a women's Bible study at church helps. I just started reading Beth Moore's new book: So Long, Insecurity. I'm only in the 2nd chapter, but it's good so far! My Bible reading plan is to read through the book of Acts, one chapter a day. I love to write in a prayer journal too. Ask God to help you fall in love with His Word. Acts 3:19 says:
    Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord, and Revelation 2:5 says: Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. What did you do "at first" that helped you keep your fire?

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  3. I hope you are able to push past the complacency soon...

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